Mercy Street

Its amazing. Its amazing that people take things for granted. Stupid little everyday things. I'm just as guilty of it as the next person. But I am wondering....can we not take things for granted? Can we simply look at a situation and just .....just know what it means?

I was just reminded of a CD. (The power of music, I tell ya'!!) It was around, if not, the summer of 2003. This is when I started REALLY REALLY getting into Peter Gabriel.I had just gotten a CD in the mail from sublicon. I couldn't wait to open it up and play it.
And I did.
With my Dad.
Him and I sat there and listened to that CD from start to finish. I remember him conducting with his foot. " Hey, Tianna...can you name this time signature? ". At the time, all of this was so normal. So everyday. I didn't think that maybe one day in the near future, this would just be a memory.

I haven't cried over my parents for awhile. I guess its overdue. I miss them terribly. I miss home. Home!

I can't help but feel wronged for what happened to us. I want to push blame onto someone else. But I can't. I want to scream to everyone that I miss my Mom and I miss my Dad!!! But I can't. All I am left with is a saying that has always been true to me, but I still don't fully understand: Everything happens for a reason.

So does that mean that I am taking for granted this entire situation? Perhaps.. Maybe I am forgetting that it is okay to sit at the computer at 2:00am, by myself, and just sob. Its ok to cry over losing my parents. Its ok to want to go home. Its just....ok.

Is that what I'm taking for granted right now?

Time for a crabby post

-Please, PLEASE, do not snap your fingers at me when you want my attention.
-If the bar is busy and I am the only bartender, please don't sit there and give me an evil eye when I am helping others who just arrived and haven't had a drink yet (while you're on your 5th drink...yeah, we keep count)
-And, when I DO get to you, please have your order ready. Don't make me sit there while you think aloud, "Let's see...." and then sit there and ponder what drink you want to have. Its a full bar.
-If you buy a drink, or have a man buy a drink for you, its yours. Its no longer my responsibility. Don't get up and leave it there and expect me to REPLACE your drink because you left it there unattended for 10 minutes. You will be charged for another drink. You don't get "replacement" drinks. And when my manager comes over and speaks with you about this and you get mad and say, " What kind of customer service is this? She just stood there and smiled at me! "realize that I was trying to stop myself from reaching over the bar and pulling out your weave.
-If you ring up a 450 dollar bill, YES, I do expect a tip.
-If you buy a Grey Goose and Cranberry and it has just a little too much cranberry in it...its still yours. You don't get a REPLACEMENT drink because it has too much cranberry. Specify what you would like BEFORE its made.


Ok. Done......for now.

I'M IT!

......and here we go.

Ten years ago:
Ten years ago, during this time, I was in drumcorps. It was one of the most horrible summers ever for the Blue Stars....but yet one of the most memorable. I remember the corps director being a complete dumb-dumb and there were times where our corps would literally be living off of PB&J! But, I do remember finals week that summer. It was 95+ degrees in Florida and we were staying at a motel that, I think, was shut down. I don't believe there was anyone else staying in that motel. But to be able to stay at a hotel while being in drumcorps...Wow. No gym floors!! There was drinking involved finals week (did I take part? No. I was SUCH a loser.) and things happening in hotel rooms that probably shouldn't have been. Ah. Debauchery.

Five things on my on-going to-do list:

1. Call around for DJs
2. Call around for Photographers
3. Laundry
4. Make a new CD
5. Look into flowers for wedding

A snack I enjoy:
What don't I enjoy? Ha. A snack I really enjoy would have to be ice cream. Or custard. (6 of one...half a dozen of the other)

Things I would do if I were a millionaire:
Pay off debt that I have, have a kick ass wedding, buy a house, donated my time or money to a charity (perhaps both because I won't be working!)

Places I have lived:

• Kindersley, SK Canada
  
• Edgerton, WI
  
• Durand, WI
  
• Eau Claire, WI
  
• La Crosse, WI
  
• Lake Delton, WI
  
• Pewaukee, WI
  
• St. Paul, MN (Ha. Does a week count?)
• Waukesha, WI
  

I stopped here because I didn't know if I had to go on and create sub-bulletins?


Well, I thought I would post some on here tonight. Its been awhile.....again. Oi.

Still living in Pewaukee right now. We are trying to find a duplex to move into. Aaron's boss, Ben, is looking to buy a duplex and rent the other side out to us. So we are living at my Aunt's house right now (rent free). Its great that we don't have to pay rent, but its very stressful to live in a room the size of my previous bathroom.

Today was an awesome day! My Aunt Kathie had found an ad in the Waukesha Freeman about a Bridal Blow-Out Sale at a church in Menomonee Falls, so we decided to go. We first walked in and didn't see a whole lot there. But through digging through the handful that were actually there, we found three or four dresses that were beautiful. Tried on a couple....didn't fit. I had no idea they ran that small. (At least that's what I'm telling myself.) But.....I found one. It fits me perfectly and its exactly what I wanted. Its simple...but that's what I like about it. What made me like it even more was the price tag on it: $175. It was originally $675. I still can't believe it.

So, that was a great chunk of my day. Andrea, myself, Kathie, and Aaron went out to dinner tonight at Pedro's. I've been there before but still don't know if I like it. Its average, at best, and I always leave there feeling full. While that's not a bad thing, its now 12:43am and I STILL feel full. We ate at 6:30. Gross.

We did a lot of wedding and budget talk today. I am so grateful that I have Kathie here to kind of take place of Mom and Dad. Quite honestly, I don't know how else I would get married. I wonder if I can get a sponsor? Ha!

Anyway...its going to put a strain on all of our finances ......so I hope things don't get carried away. I suppose I can settle for golf carts bringing the wedding party in and not a helicopter.

Anyhoo...It's late and I should get to bed. Lots to do tomorrow, as you read above.

Hope all is well!