Edward. Cullen.


*swoon*


For real, I feel like I'm in middle school! I CANNOT wait for November 20th.

Looks like I"m buying Twighlight (The movie) tomorrow.

Edward Cullen

I must say, I think I'm in love with a vampire. It's only a book, I know, but I can totally see how these tween girls get all ooey and gooey over him!!! (and by tween I mean every women in the Universe!)

I'm in the last book, about half way through, and cannot wait to finish it. I will be devastated when its over. The past four days have been simply dedicated to reading all the books ....so then what?

Anyhoodle, I love Edward. Sorry, Aaron!

Wowsa

So sorry for that last blog entry. (Or am I?) Either way, today is a new day and I feel 120% better than I did yesterday! I was all sorts of crazy......Eeek!

Also, Happy Birthday, Mom!! LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU!!!!

Wanted

Everybody wants to feel wanted so when they don't, it can totally ruin a day/week/year. I sometimes think, " Ok, its me. It's totally me. I did something wrong that I deserve this." So then I step back and see a pattern. Nobody gets excited to see me. Nobody misses me. Nobody comes over. It scares me. I know I've pulled away socially over the past 4-5 years and I'm trying to stop that. But seriously, unless its a big party, (wedding, Friendsgiving) I can't get anyone here (at MY place) to just hang out. This sounds so pitiful and I cannot believe I am blogging this, but its all true.

I just miss the old me.

le sigh.

Click here for goose bumps. This is one of the many reasons I marched drumcorps. Oh, how I miss it!

Cervical Dysplasia

So there we have it. I have a high level of Cervical Dysplasia. Just heard back from the doctors office. It generally comes from HPV, but that has never been brought up in any doctors office I've ever been in. So I'm not sure if that's where it came from. But mainly, its pre-cancerous cells. I have a LEEP procedure on October 1st where they will remove some of my cervix in hopes to get rid of the abnormal area. From there, its a pap smear every 2-3 months to monitor everything so it doesn't develop into cancer. This is, clearly, the short version of this all ......